let the stars cry

SHERYL KOH;
if you need a shoulder. i am here. i can't believe you never call me when you need someone. was 11 years nothing? i don't believe this sheryl koh xue er! its not like i've never seen you cry before. you know that i'm patient with you. i'll never give up on you. remember that alright. i'll be your strength when you need me. i miss you dear. i miss seeing you all the time and being crazy with you. i miss those times. it just seems like both of us don't have time for each other anymore.

AMAZING;
i'm sorry that it seems impossible to open up to you. i know you can tell when i'm sad. but now he has pushed me to you. he doesn't want me to depend on him anymore. i don't want to depend on him anymore. cause it hurts too much. and i'm think he's sick of me. and my problems. but he doesn't realise that he is part of the problem too. it dosen't matter if i'm sick. cause that is not the problem.

PRECIOUS;
i don't know what to say to you. i don't know what to say to you anymore. but i knew that i don't have a blanket to fall back on anymore. for a long time already. there isn't even a ground anymore as i fall. but i depended on the false security that you seem to give me everytime. if i knew. that this was going to happen. i wouldn't be selfish. and put my wants before your feelings and your sanity.
i'm sorry.
and everytime i say sorry. i mean it. these are one of the words that weight alot of meaning. you might think that i say sorry and that i wouldn just forget about what i did. why do you think people say that sorry is one of the hardest words to say. cause i have to lower alot of my pride to say one word.
and its takes alot of out me to say that i still love you when i know that i was supposed to stop a long time ago.
a really long time ago.
but i'm still here. for you.

GOD;
ease this journey and the pain. let me know that its worth going on. please. give me strength and walk with me. help me. cause there isn't going to be nayone else to help me like you can.

i am lost. my pillar of strength so viciously tore away from me. but i think its time to do this by myself. to be strong. and independent. i don't want to be constantly needing anyone anymore.


i'm having a day from hell.
it was all going so well.
before you came.
and you told me you needed space.
with a kiss on the side of my face.
not again.
and not to mention the tears i shed.
i should have kicked your ass instead.
i need intervention.
attention to stop temptation to scream.
cause baby.
everything is f-ed up straight from the heart.
tell me what do you do when it all falls apart.
gotta pick myself up, where do i start.
cause i can't turn to you when it falls apart.
don't know where i parked my car.
don't now who my real friends are anymore.
i put my faith in you.
what a stupid thing to do.
what the rain pours.
and not to mention.
i drank too much.
i'm feeling hungover.
drank too much.
i need intervention.
attention to stop temptation to scream.
can't it be easier?
can't i just change my life?
cause it just seems to go bad everytime.
will i be mending
another ending once again.
gotta pick myself up.
cause baby i'm f-ed up.
;the veronicas.


i'll be the giver and you'll be the taker.
my shoulders are heavy from the weight of us both.